Now in a effort to help some of you understand the beast called depression & the battle that the Manman has had with it,let me start with I speak only of myself from my views of my self.
It often runs in cycles some times a day or two some times months or yrs.
Fighting it on your own with out the help of a Doctor like I do is is dangerous and not recommended.
I have my reasons for doing this.
Sometimes it starts in mid day. At some point the beast wakes up things begin to be wrong this is mild and sometimes unnoticed maybe for days. This is the beginning of the cycle .
The next day when I wake up its SHIT another fuking day. Why even bother getting up. Sooner or later for one reason or another I have to. These days drag on in to late night and crappy television ending when fatigue finally wins out the depression.Sleep comes often after the silent tears that never flow & the prayers that morning never comes. These my be the last prayers said for many days.
It often runs in cycles some times a day or two some times months or yrs.
Fighting it on your own with out the help of a Doctor like I do is is dangerous and not recommended.
I have my reasons for doing this.
Sometimes it starts in mid day. At some point the beast wakes up things begin to be wrong this is mild and sometimes unnoticed maybe for days. This is the beginning of the cycle .
The next day when I wake up its SHIT another fuking day. Why even bother getting up. Sooner or later for one reason or another I have to. These days drag on in to late night and crappy television ending when fatigue finally wins out the depression.Sleep comes often after the silent tears that never flow & the prayers that morning never comes. These my be the last prayers said for many days.
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