OK some of you have known me for a time. I might have been little crazy in the past but I think now since the car crash maybe just maybe I have gone over the edge. It is clear I had or have a concussion how long one can last I can not seem to get a answer on. If there is or is not any long term damage is something I want to find out. I got the nerve up to start talking about it. Brain damage that is. How do I know for sure whats different whats the same? I know the fog that has been my life the hungover feeling that comes and gos is not normal. But my memory, what was it like before. Was I always this way? I remember the crash, But people that I know , have known for years I forget there names sometimes even how to spell shit I should know.
Shit! Its...(ok I told myself I wouldn't hole back on this.) I had to look at my drivers lic. to spell my last name and get my birth date right. I know that's not normal.I can not do the normal crap I once did. that is the normal or what I think was normal for me.I think maybe I am truly going mad!
I got the pic's of the car the other day. Fist time I saw them I couldn't get a good look of them on Kenny's phone. I was somewhat shocked. not sure what I was expecting. I needed some one to talk to last night. I called Kenny it felt like I was talking to a stranger. What the fuck! I can not live with this shit. I have no way out of it. How can I even find a job when I can not remember what jobs I had when. All I have is peaces.
I pick up a app the other day for subway by the time I was done with it, it was so... well it was fucked up.
You ever sat in your house and felt lost? Well its scary as hell.
More to come. Maybe.
That was 4 days ago but seems longer. Pain is the word of the day. The fog is back. Reading my old blogs asking myself did I wright that?
I spent most the day in bed my back hurting worst then it ever has or at least as far as I can remember.
I took something for the pain it has helped some but I don't think I be taking my walk today.
The blog is a good thing, I think. It has helped me get my bamaged drain working. At least on the recent stuff. But who gives a fuck! Just me.
I am sure there is others but I have no Ideal how many or who they are for sure.
Shit! Its...(ok I told myself I wouldn't hole back on this.) I had to look at my drivers lic. to spell my last name and get my birth date right. I know that's not normal.I can not do the normal crap I once did. that is the normal or what I think was normal for me.I think maybe I am truly going mad!
I got the pic's of the car the other day. Fist time I saw them I couldn't get a good look of them on Kenny's phone. I was somewhat shocked. not sure what I was expecting. I needed some one to talk to last night. I called Kenny it felt like I was talking to a stranger. What the fuck! I can not live with this shit. I have no way out of it. How can I even find a job when I can not remember what jobs I had when. All I have is peaces.
I pick up a app the other day for subway by the time I was done with it, it was so... well it was fucked up.
You ever sat in your house and felt lost? Well its scary as hell.
More to come. Maybe.
I spent most the day in bed my back hurting worst then it ever has or at least as far as I can remember.
I took something for the pain it has helped some but I don't think I be taking my walk today.
The blog is a good thing, I think. It has helped me get my bamaged drain working. At least on the recent stuff. But who gives a fuck! Just me.
I am sure there is others but I have no Ideal how many or who they are for sure.
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