Excommunicated, Disowned? Whatever it is, I am grieving. To those involved, are you happy? No one has bothered to ask me my side. Even though I can forgive the wrongs done to me, the damage being done is more then I can carry. My part well I am still trying to figure it all out. But how can I know what it is If the other side is not willing to talk to me?
To set a few things straight. I did not leave her at the hospital. The week before, I did not blow up. I was in pain with a piece of metal in my eye. I got mad because she was more concerned with the dog being in her closet then helping me. Everything escalated words got said resentments formed. It was the straw that broke me. Two days or so later in the morning I asked the boys to get on their chores. The fourth time I came in around 4pm and they had not done anything other the play on the playstation all day I did get angry I would not say I blew up I did raise my voice told them if the didn't get to work they would lose that play playstation.
Now there are truths and half truths being told. People taking sides. I never asked any one to take sides. I have been judge and found guilty with out ever being given a chance to defined my self.
Yes I said I want a divorce. With everything that has happened in just the last few years Why wouldn't I. Yet I made a promise and a Vow. I have kept them and Will keep them as best as I can even if I have to do it alone.
If you have a problem with me and you do not bring it to me it will never be resolved. the healing will never happen. The growth can not go on. Time will not heal all wounds. In fact this is one of those times when the longer it sets the worst it will be.
I have made my mistakes I will live with them.
For what it is worth I love you all. I always will. I will always miss you.
To set a few things straight. I did not leave her at the hospital. The week before, I did not blow up. I was in pain with a piece of metal in my eye. I got mad because she was more concerned with the dog being in her closet then helping me. Everything escalated words got said resentments formed. It was the straw that broke me. Two days or so later in the morning I asked the boys to get on their chores. The fourth time I came in around 4pm and they had not done anything other the play on the playstation all day I did get angry I would not say I blew up I did raise my voice told them if the didn't get to work they would lose that play playstation.
Now there are truths and half truths being told. People taking sides. I never asked any one to take sides. I have been judge and found guilty with out ever being given a chance to defined my self.
Yes I said I want a divorce. With everything that has happened in just the last few years Why wouldn't I. Yet I made a promise and a Vow. I have kept them and Will keep them as best as I can even if I have to do it alone.
If you have a problem with me and you do not bring it to me it will never be resolved. the healing will never happen. The growth can not go on. Time will not heal all wounds. In fact this is one of those times when the longer it sets the worst it will be.
I have made my mistakes I will live with them.
For what it is worth I love you all. I always will. I will always miss you.
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