Some times I just have to say fuck

A rant.
 Everything is so fucked up in my life and the world.
 Only a few days left to find a place to live.
Wrecked my truck last night.
Lost my peace of shit job last month.
 Wife went nuts. I mean psychotic.
Behind on the bills.

 The thing is you think I would have got use to this shit by now.
 When will I ever get ahead of this shit.
God must not like me to much.
Like most people.
When I was a kid my brothers pick on me.
My teachers and the other students.
Over the years I have had very few true friends and that never last.
Girl friends came along cheated and left.
Famly stole from me took advantages.
Seems like no one even cares about anyone but themselves anymore.
This beautiful land of ours is going to hell.
We're is the point in it? What's the purpose?
...

You would think after almost 30yrs of commitment, trust would have been built.
But no.
After all the hell of just the last 15 days.
I would think it would be there.
You give heart and soul just to get kick again.
I'm starting to believe love isn't enough.
Have I given to much?
How much more can I take?
God may be the only one that can answer that one.
 I am

What you said has cost beyond belief

Well here I am for a RANT.
To those that say they want to help
Then won't because its not jiving with there life style.
Fuck you.
To those that want to lay blame on anyone or anything other then the truth.
Fuck you.
To the one I stuck with and loved thru his hardest times I love you still.
But untill you pull your head out of your ass fuck you!
You said you want nothing to do with me.
Fine if thats it then keep it that way.
Don't ask me for nothing ever again.
You want to blame me for everything then
Go ahead. And as you said keep it away from your family. Fine. I will,just remimber.
My wife is my family and half of me.
She will come before my son.
Your ideals and lifestyle with pot is more important then your parent's.
If you have placed it before your earthly father I pray you haven't placed it before your heavenly father.
I can forgive.
Your prideful words can not be taken back.
M.M.

Potted. Like it or not. MaryJane will screw with you

If you have read my profile,you know why I chose my pin name.
Now don't let the name fool you.
I am sane, also very passionate about many things.
But I am getting away from why I am here tonight.
I'm going to blow my anonymity somewhat.
This June will be 34yrs clean and sober.
And tonight I am Mad.
I see all the propaganda being posted about the miracles of pot. Cabanas. Mary Jane. Weed. What ever the fuck you want to call it.
It's a fucking drug. Plant or not. Wild or grow in a garden or green house. It's a drug.
What is grow and sold today is not the same as 30 and 40 yrs ago.
Yes it has a few medical uses.
As well as clothes,rope,paper, other things as well.
It a drug!!!!!!
It is dangerous like it or not.
You can argue all you want. After 30+years of being in a 12 step program and helping others get clean and sober I have seen (as well as lived it)
Just how much damage this plant can do.
Just like alcohol.
It is addictive.
If you don't believe it. Understand this.
A addiction can happen with anything that a person uses to cope with or escape from life's struggles.
I can beat any argument you want to come up with so don't even try.
And if you do try understand this.
You can not and will not change what I know from all my years of being a pot head before recovery as well and more so as after.
Also remember the people that sale it may have altered it with who knows what.
 

look here as well.
this is not a complete list.

https://www.medicaldaily.com/7-hidden-health-dangers-smoking-marijuana-revealed-2016-406228?amp=1

https://amp.usatoday.com/amp/10386699